What's in a Name?

Ecstasy (n)- 2. Excessive joy; rapture; a degree of delight that arrests the whole mind; joy may rise to ecstasy. (Websters 1828 Dictionary)
Doldrums (n)- A sate of inactivity or stagnation.(Dictionary.com)

Thursday, February 12, 2009

The Path Ahead

Do you ever fear the ambiguity of the road ahead of you? Do you ever feel like you will never be anything more than what you are right now, in this very moment? Are you ever scared that life will leave you in obscurity, never to be a name known or to make your mark on history? I do, at times. "We only have one life to live" we are told time and time again. How will we chose to live?

I have many friends who do not share my conviction about staying home and learning to manage a household before marriage who respect my decision and even encourage me in what I am doing. But there are those few who don't know what to think. Sometimes when people ask, "You still live with your parents, you're not going to school and you only teach piano two days out of the week? What do you do all day?" several unprofitable answers come to mind:

(sarcastically)" I sit on the couch and eat pastries, watching television, while my mom cleans and cooks and takes care of Ethan."

(importantly) "What do I DO all day? Well, let me tell you......" and proceed to list of every duty that befalls to me.

(stupidly) "Well, I....um...I think...er..."ect.

(angrily) "What do you THINK I do all day?"

Each one of those answers is selfish and prideful. I want to be able to answer in humility, without bragging or exaggerating, but clearly and articulately what it is I do at home and why I am there rather than teaching in a school or a music store or any other place. So, I am attempting to study scripture in order that I have an answer for my convictions. I may decide to post some of my findings here, I'm not sure.

But one thing I do know: Jesus never sought greatness (He didn't need to, because He is God) or fame or luxury. He often spent time with the unimportant. He picked average men to be His disciples. He exuded humility from His lowly birth to His inglorious death on a criminal's cross. Why is it that I need to have renown? It should be enough for me to do my small duties with fervor out of great love for Him and to play to my Audience of One.

Let us long for the "well done, good and faithful servant" from our Creator, rather than the applause of the mere creatures.


Natasha said...

Sadly, so true, yet we have hope in Christ.

Hannah said...

You are such a wonderful,Godly, example Amanda! I hope you will post your findings from Scripture. I love what you said about "playing to an Audience of One." It is so easy to get caught up in pleasing man instead of God. But we were created to glorify Him and we will gain so much more from doing so! (Sorry, this is so long).

Amanda said...

Tash and Hannah- you are joys to me! Thanks for the encouragement and I ALWAYS value and enjoy your insight! I love you both!

Emmy-Lou said...

Amanda that is so true! When I look at myself as the world does I don't match up, but God does not look at the outward appearance but the inward and if I try and make that as beautiful as I try to make my outward then my life will not be been wasted!And if we all strive for that then we may touch many more lives by being Christ-like than by having a great career, or being the next hit singer because the mess up as we all do but their sins go world wide so think of this what you do if you are famous is always known!

Jenna said...

amanda, you are a treasure. God has put his light in you to share whats on your heart, and it's very convicting. But nonetheless i appreciate it. I love you so much!

Amanda said...

You are absolutely right, Em- beauty is fleeting, but a Christlike character will bless many and have everlasting effect! Thanks so much for sharing that eternally minded wisdom! : )
Benna- you are a treasure as well and I love you dearly!!